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Do not trace, copy, or distribute any of the art on here without my permission. All posted art belongs to Alyssa Mikayla E. Mata UNLESS stated otherwise.
Thank you!</description><title>♡ ❤ ♡ ❤ ♡</title><generator>Tumblr (3.0; @ameb-love)</generator><link>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/</link><item><title>t-starkjr:

#the only person who can make suiting up sexier than...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/340e5ef3cbcb399be544c1b26076b41b/tumblr_mlf06dK05C1qerawio1_250.gif"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/d78f568ec2c5ed6bd14bef7e41c22fb0/tumblr_mlf06dK05C1qerawio2_250.gif"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/7f9239b0ea138137475e4837080a8292/tumblr_mlf06dK05C1qerawio3_250.gif"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/5635dd6b43a58dcdd01e67ab3f3aca3e/tumblr_mlf06dK05C1qerawio6_250.gif"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/83710b2de73c509ef9c5703f5c781b38/tumblr_mlf06dK05C1qerawio4_250.gif"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/351f96bf648470ef6dc839565fa3db8a/tumblr_mlf06dK05C1qerawio5_250.gif"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://t-starkjr.tumblr.com/post/50168496328"&gt;t-starkjr&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;span&gt;#&lt;/span&gt;&lt;a href="http://igotyoufirst.tumblr.com/tagged/the-only-person-who-can-make-suiting-up-sexier-than-stripping"&gt;the only person who can make suiting up sexier than stripping&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;/blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;….What about Barney Stinson?&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50745788824</link><guid>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50745788824</guid><pubDate>Sat, 18 May 2013 11:26:02 -0700</pubDate></item><item><title>pscs5:


stereksextape:

I ALWAYS THOUGHT THE HDR EFFECT WAS...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/dd797b7a6d4d01375b8b6a3c50240028/tumblr_mmwo90gcdm1qfvwwoo1_500.png"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/e22260e963c079d7ab1f3e6d27f864a8/tumblr_mmwo90gcdm1qfvwwoo2_500.png"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://pscs5.tumblr.com/post/50678111048"&gt;pscs5&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;blockquote&gt;
&lt;blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://stereksextape.tumblr.com/post/50592770740/i-always-thought-the-hdr-effect-was-hard-but-its"&gt;stereksextape&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;/blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;I ALWAYS THOUGHT THE HDR EFFECT WAS HARD BUT IT’S ACTUALLY LIKE A 5 STEP THING BESIDES DUPLICATING AND FLATTENING SHIT HOLY FUCK I CAN DO IT. I’M SO EXCITED WOW THAT’S LOVELY and I have to share because no one every taught me this.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;ol&gt;&lt;li&gt;&lt;span&gt;Open your picture.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;&lt;span&gt;Duplicate layer (Ctrl+J)&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;&lt;span&gt;Overlay that shit 50%&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;&lt;span&gt;Flatten image (Ctrl+E)&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;&lt;span&gt;Duplicate that one layer that you have now &lt;/span&gt;(Ctrl+J)&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;Desaturate (Shift+Ctrl+U)&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;Invert (Ctrl+I)&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;Gaussian Blur it to 40&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;Now overlay that B&amp;W Blurred image&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;Duplicate and sharpen if necessary&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;&lt;strong&gt;AMAZEMENT WOW HOLY SHIT&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;/ol&gt;&lt;/blockquote&gt;</description><link>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50745028940</link><guid>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50745028940</guid><pubDate>Sat, 18 May 2013 11:15:06 -0700</pubDate></item><item><title>Ifeellikeshehatesme…</title><description>&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/fb3e37a0e09677f9854165c396e7c04f/tumblr_mmww3zBmsL1r6bbbvo1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;strike&gt;&lt;em&gt;Ifeellikeshehatesme…&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/strike&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50604624658</link><guid>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50604624658</guid><pubDate>Thu, 16 May 2013 15:07:11 -0700</pubDate><category>punkin</category><category>thesexiestoffenders</category><category>tos</category><category>fanart</category><category>art</category><category>ameb-love</category></item><item><title>Supposed to be me. /crai</title><description>&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/9a2427539a222023e41d4d254100ee90/tumblr_mmsnoiV6PK1r6bbbvo1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;Supposed to be me. /crai&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50422946516</link><guid>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50422946516</guid><pubDate>Tue, 14 May 2013 08:14:42 -0700</pubDate><category>ameb-love</category><category>art</category><category>watercolor</category><category>self-portrait</category><category>expressionist</category></item><item><title>alittlerazzledazzle:

sundayslyfox:

cookiesandalesana:

i love...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/68b37eaaa23371e1fd3dd98691de3445/tumblr_mkypgogy8u1rxa2k2o1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/7c15bfc22c002bbf3061c7a2fcb05405/tumblr_mkypgogy8u1rxa2k2o2_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/a5dbb6262441520b374172dea2e7274d/tumblr_mkypgogy8u1rxa2k2o3_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/dbe63c76588f7d16d549473cfb2e71a7/tumblr_mkypgogy8u1rxa2k2o4_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/fe2617a5ae68f3978007878dea1d3f6a/tumblr_mkypgogy8u1rxa2k2o5_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/bff5f380142a01d3535f652f9ef71244/tumblr_mkypgogy8u1rxa2k2o6_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/9ba953143c16f8dd706e4073d100d455/tumblr_mkypgogy8u1rxa2k2o7_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/0f0794d77917bbb88725825531662232/tumblr_mkypgogy8u1rxa2k2o8_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://alittlerazzledazzle.tumblr.com/post/49200854665/sundayslyfox-cookiesandalesana-i-love-these"&gt;alittlerazzledazzle&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://sundayslyfox.tumblr.com/post/47694363632/cookiesandalesana-i-love-these-ohmygod-these"&gt;sundayslyfox&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://cookiesandalesana.tumblr.com/post/47664319042"&gt;cookiesandalesana&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;i love these ohmygod&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;/blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;These are glorious&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;/blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;I really need to see the last three in their actual films!&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;/blockquote&gt;</description><link>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50420374151</link><guid>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50420374151</guid><pubDate>Tue, 14 May 2013 07:16:23 -0700</pubDate></item><item><title>kagamii:

here are my brush settings! i appreciate them a lot...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/96797f5f558e5d447fa61e447a48f1f3/tumblr_mmps1c3G5i1r7u4aio4_250.png"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/d6a95c5c4bc8abd1ba948007ade00cc2/tumblr_mmps1c3G5i1r7u4aio2_250.png"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/4c9c69f15d015050af3ca227f11853f4/tumblr_mmps1c3G5i1r7u4aio5_250.png"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/4e7b09bac4d23a7f5754dff3a148853d/tumblr_mmps1c3G5i1r7u4aio1_250.png"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/7edd7ce4f2958354a713fb3a32c878b6/tumblr_mmps1c3G5i1r7u4aio3_250.png"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://kagamii.tumblr.com/post/50310565061/here-are-my-brush-settings-i-appreciate-them-a"&gt;kagamii&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;here are my brush settings! i appreciate them a lot (sweats)&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;texture download: &lt;a href="http://www.mediafire.com/?g984k5ga5di65ee"&gt;x&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;/blockquote&gt;</description><link>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50398908573</link><guid>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50398908573</guid><pubDate>Mon, 13 May 2013 21:12:11 -0700</pubDate></item><item><title>robotsquid:

thefingerfuckingfemalefury:

paintvrlife:

by *X-Ari...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_me4ia3QaSO1rks7exo1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_me4ia3QaSO1rks7exo2_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_me4ia3QaSO1rks7exo3_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://robotsquid.tumblr.com/post/37961396054/thefingerfuckingfemalefury-paintvrlife"&gt;robotsquid&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://thefingerfuckingfemalefury.tumblr.com/post/36794241146/paintvrlife-by-x-arielle-perfection-i"&gt;thefingerfuckingfemalefury&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://paintvrlife.tumblr.com/post/36693848265/by-x-arielle"&gt;paintvrlife&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;span class="by"&gt;by&lt;/span&gt;&lt;span&gt; *&lt;/span&gt;&lt;a class="u" href="http://x-arielle.deviantart.com/"&gt;X-Arielle&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;/blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;^ PERFECTION&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;/blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Argh okay fine I give I’ve seen this photoset like 5 times I’ll reblog it already it’s adorable &lt;33&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;/blockquote&gt;</description><link>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50398509375</link><guid>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50398509375</guid><pubDate>Mon, 13 May 2013 21:05:44 -0700</pubDate></item><item><title>You&amp;#8217;re the only one I want to notice me and love me..
But you&amp;#8217;re the one who looks away...</title><description>&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;You&amp;#8217;re the only one I want to notice me and love me..&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;But you&amp;#8217;re the one who looks away and has no time for me.&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;:/ Fff.&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;And I&amp;#8217;ve been having this art block.&amp;#160;; A ; &lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50377235870</link><guid>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50377235870</guid><pubDate>Mon, 13 May 2013 16:32:55 -0700</pubDate><category>life</category><category>personal</category><category>sad</category></item><item><title>love-sexy-lesbian:

Before I get inside you,
I’ll want a taste...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/f8a34a913f64eb40a354d9fcb9376e36/tumblr_mjmedhcT5T1r1nibho1_500.gif"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://love-sexy-lesbian.tumblr.com/post/45296859658/before-i-get-inside-you-ill-want-a-taste-of"&gt;love-sexy-lesbian&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Before I get inside you,&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;I’ll want a taste of you. It’s like the appetizer, getting you ready for what’s about to come. Besides you, that is. I love it when you let me go down on you. I really can’t tell you why.  Maybe it’s the feeling of knowing that you’re getting absolutely nothing, but pleasure out of it. And that it’s me who’s giving it to you. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;The way you let me know I’m doing you right, is just so fucking hot. When you squeeze my head in between your legs so damn tightly. Fingers running through my hair, while you’re pushing my face against you as if I could get any closer than I already am. I can hear you panting so loud, it just tells me that I shouldn’t stop. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Then there it is. You let me know that I should. Not with words, but with your body language. The moment your eyes roll back, thighs quiver, and your grip on me loosens. I know I got it out of you. And as I look back up at you with that huge grin on your face, trying to catch your breath, I know I accomplished my goal. That’s what you wanted, right? &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;/blockquote&gt;</description><link>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50323769612</link><guid>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50323769612</guid><pubDate>Sun, 12 May 2013 22:18:06 -0700</pubDate></item><item><title>Seriously. People.WHY. Why are they just.. so bleh?!
= n = 
I am sore. And tired. And sick.
And all...</title><description>&lt;p&gt;Seriously. People.&lt;br/&gt;WHY. Why are they just.. so bleh?!&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;= n = &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;I am sore. And tired. And sick.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;And all I wanna do is cuddle with my dog&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;and talk &lt;span&gt;with an amazing person who will make&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;me smile and lemme fall asleep even &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;in the middle of the conversation.&lt;/p&gt;

&lt;p&gt;Bleh.. Lately, everyone is so annoying :c &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Can&amp;#8217;t we all just decide to be NICE?! D:&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50231287676</link><guid>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50231287676</guid><pubDate>Sat, 11 May 2013 23:06:08 -0700</pubDate><category>ameb-love</category><category>people</category><category>life</category></item><item><title>c: A scenic art project..</title><description>&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/35f5337e5b2c2b341e8a7a783d4cd71f/tumblr_mmnamaorvH1r6bbbvo1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;c: A scenic art project..&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50180468615</link><guid>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50180468615</guid><pubDate>Sat, 11 May 2013 10:44:34 -0700</pubDate><category>ameb-love</category><category>watercolor</category><category>painting</category><category>traditional</category><category>art</category></item><item><title>purplekecleon:

Hi everyone!!! This is an art supplies giveaway...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/4e1e284cf74f6803de851262eed61a97/tumblr_mmly48Ny681qh7zxeo1_500.png"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://purplekecleon.tumblr.com/post/50125253635/hi-everyone-this-is-an-art-supplies-giveaway"&gt;purplekecleon&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Hi everyone!!! This is an art supplies giveaway for me reaching an amount of followers I said I’d do a giveaway at!&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Here are the things you’ll be getting, as you can see from the photo!&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;ul&gt;&lt;li&gt;&lt;strong&gt;6” by 10” Sketchbook&lt;/strong&gt; for both wet and dry media&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;&lt;strong&gt;A bottle of ink&lt;/strong&gt;, you pick the color, I’ll order it from &lt;a href="http://www.shopwritersbloc.com/noodlersink.html"&gt;a specific site&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;&lt;strong&gt;A fountain pen&lt;/strong&gt; that comes with the ink from &lt;a href="http://www.shopwritersbloc.com/noodlersink.html"&gt;the same site&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;&lt;strong&gt;11 colors&lt;/strong&gt; of Cotman Winsor &amp; Newton&lt;strong&gt; watercolors&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;&lt;strong&gt;3 brushes&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;&lt;strong&gt;A drawing&lt;/strong&gt; of a subject of your choice to go on the first page! You might want to &lt;a href="https://purplekecleon.deviantart.com/"&gt;check my art&lt;/a&gt; out if you’re unfamiliar with me to see what types of things I usually do&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;/ul&gt;&lt;p&gt;And that’s that.  I don’t use any of those watercolor tubes anymore, as I’ve replaced them each with higher quality tubes, so I thought: why not give them away?  And I like the fountain pen I’ve been using so much that I think I’d like someone else to try it, too.  I’ve also replaced the three brushes I’ve included here, so I don’t need those, either.  And a drawing for good measure.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Here are the&lt;strong&gt; rules!&lt;/strong&gt; Please follow these:&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;ul&gt;&lt;li&gt;&lt;strong&gt;No giveaway blogs&lt;/strong&gt;.  I want more people to actually see this and have a chance at getting something; a lot of artists don’t have a lot of money…&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Reblogs enter you, and a Like helps.&lt;/strong&gt;  You can’t just like - but you can do both to double your chances of just reblogging (if it falls on someone who liked it, I’ll check to see if they reblogged it)&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;I’ll be checking the blog that wins to see if you’re &lt;strong&gt;an active blog.&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;&lt;strong&gt;You gotta use these after they arrive!&lt;/strong&gt; I obviously can’t enforce this, but I want to see people not being timid! Make art! That’s what these are for.  I know a thing that stops a lot of people is being scared they’ll mess up and waste expensive supplies… but if this is a gift, that shouldn’t matter!&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;This ends on &lt;strong&gt;May 24th. If I send an ask and you don’t respond within 2 days, I’ll ask the next person, and so on.&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;li&gt;&lt;strong&gt;I will ship anywhere. I’ll pay the shipping.&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;/li&gt;
&lt;/ul&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/strong&gt;I think that’s everything.  Have fun!!! Good luck!&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;/blockquote&gt;</description><link>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50128354783</link><guid>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50128354783</guid><pubDate>Fri, 10 May 2013 18:03:20 -0700</pubDate></item><item><title>..I  had five pizzas in one sitting a while back.
Did I eat pizza&amp;#8217;s...</title><description>&lt;p&gt;..I  had five pizzas in one sitting a while back.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Did I eat pizza&amp;#8217;s babies?&lt;/p&gt;

&lt;p&gt;&lt;strike&gt;stupidtumblrmakingmeseeifsomeonethatgoesbypizzawillrespond&lt;/strike&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;strike&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/strike&gt;&amp;gt;.&amp;lt; Hnngh.&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50065472416</link><guid>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/50065472416</guid><pubDate>Thu, 09 May 2013 20:30:40 -0700</pubDate></item><item><title>Dreams almost never freak me out.
Almost never. I can only name four off the top of my 
head that...</title><description>&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;Dreams almost never freak me out.&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;Almost never. I can only name four off the top of my &lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;head that really messed with me. &amp;gt;.&amp;lt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;Until last night. Ugh. That really scared me&amp;#8230;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;Fuck&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/49856655732</link><guid>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/49856655732</guid><pubDate>Tue, 07 May 2013 07:50:45 -0700</pubDate><category>dreams</category><category>sleep</category><category>insomnia</category><category>personal</category><category>nightmares</category></item><item><title>I have been left. So many times. By people who were irreplaceable.
They came back and would leave...</title><description>&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;I have been left. So many times. By people who were irreplaceable.&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;They came back and would leave and it would repeat.&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;There had been a point where they promised they would always be&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;there for me. But now we&amp;#8217;re growing up.&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;And there&amp;#8217;s less time to dream. I had to accept, I was still living in a &lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;fantasy. Every night, I would scream into my pillows because the pain &lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;was simply&amp;#8230; brutal. I begged for it to stop.&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;The last thing I felt was &lt;strong&gt;utter destruction&lt;/strong&gt;&amp;#8230;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;My heart has shriveled up. And I no longer feel the pain.&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;But I also no longer feel happy. Or loved. Or cherished.&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;Or trusting. Or loving. I feel empty, hollow. &lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;&amp;#8230;.And we wanted to grow up so fast to be together.&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;And all we&amp;#8217;ve done was grow apart.&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/49824473644</link><guid>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/49824473644</guid><pubDate>Mon, 06 May 2013 19:18:49 -0700</pubDate><category>personal</category><category>sad</category><category>growing up</category></item><item><title>the-iron-impala:

UPDATE:
this is what the book looks...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/3fa1745c913bab28dcc46eacaebcacc6/tumblr_mmcy65UzPf1s80dmso1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/93ad28ca954c6e6f2a8914acd4a8b5ec/tumblr_mmcy65UzPf1s80dmso2_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://the-iron-impala.tumblr.com/post/49748705665/update-this-is-what-the-book-looks-like-and"&gt;the-iron-impala&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;UPDATE:&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;this is what the book looks like. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;and, &lt;em&gt;yes&lt;/em&gt;. i &lt;em&gt;did&lt;/em&gt; put dora stickers on there. i wanted to add stickers and all i had was dora so oh well.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;every one who reblogged it so far has their name in the book. but it only fills 14 pages. i dont want to give robert a book that isnt full, so keep reblogging, everyone!!!&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;thanks!&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;/blockquote&gt;</description><link>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/49823901105</link><guid>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/49823901105</guid><pubDate>Mon, 06 May 2013 19:12:18 -0700</pubDate></item><item><title>My Ink is Black</title><description>&lt;p&gt;&lt;span&gt;My ink is black.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;No reason or rhyme,&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;just raw emotions&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;with no track of time&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;so it might just last forever.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;And despite what you think&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;it is the ink that will link&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;the two of you together &lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;whether we&amp;#8217;re here or severed.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;But right now you&amp;#8217;re gone,&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;so I&amp;#8217;m a recluse, withdrawn,&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;and all that I&amp;#8217;ve drawn is what &lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;I no longer have.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;Erasers not working,&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;simply just smudging,&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;and making things worse and ugly.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;I&amp;#8217;m less than half empty,&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;running on fumes.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;So what&amp;#8217;s left now?&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;Just time to lose.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;I&amp;#8217;m not just bruised &lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;with black and blues.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;I&amp;#8217;m broken, defected, infected,&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;tainted with damnation,&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;with loss of sensation,&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;fading into the numb.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;My ink is black.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;No reason or rhyme,&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;just raw emotions&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;with no track of time&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;so it might just last forever&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;since we&amp;#8217;re not together.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;A sharp throbbing pain.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;Voices driving me insane.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;Inject me with Novocaine.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;It&amp;#8217;s inside my chest.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;They won&amp;#8217;t let me rest&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;but perhaps it&amp;#8217;s for the best&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;so the nightmares don&amp;#8217;t come,&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;but to sum up the some of those&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;restless nights,&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;the monster I fight is me.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;Not under my bed, but inside my head,&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;is where my true demon lies.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;My ink is black.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;No reason or rhyme.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;Just raw emotions&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;with no track of time&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;span&gt;and so it will last forever.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/49230968737</link><guid>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/49230968737</guid><pubDate>Mon, 29 Apr 2013 19:45:31 -0700</pubDate><category>ameb-love</category><category>poem</category><category>poetry</category><category>sad</category><category>angst</category><category>depressed</category><category>person</category><category>demons</category></item><item><title>Everyone keeps saying they&amp;#8217;ll be there for me. And they all kept leaving. All of them. One...</title><description>&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;Everyone keeps saying they&amp;#8217;ll be there for me. And they all kept leaving. All of them. One after the other. I left in one person. One person behind my walls. He loved me and cared for me. More than words could ever say. But now he&amp;#8217;s walking out of my life. The one person I trusted and the one person I wish I never hurt, but he&amp;#8217;s leaving me&amp;#8230; &lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;And I feel like nothing. He carved out my heart and took my soul. He took the smile he created and the happiness I had. And I can&amp;#8217;t blame him. I was broken, and he fixed me and made me and I guess&amp;#8230; My flaws were too much. And I broke him. He can&amp;#8217;t love me anymore but all I want in the world is him.&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;His smile, his laugh, his love&amp;#8230; But I&amp;#8217;m scared. I&amp;#8217;m scared he&amp;#8217;ll never come back. I&amp;#8217;m scared he&amp;#8217;ll never love me again. I&amp;#8217;m scared that I&amp;#8217;m nothing to him. I&amp;#8217;m scared that I&amp;#8217;m always going to be full of flaws. I&amp;#8217;m scared I won&amp;#8217;t be able to feel. I&amp;#8217;m scared my future won&amp;#8217;t have him. I&amp;#8217;m terrified. People run away to their homes to find security. My home wasn&amp;#8217;t a place. My home was him. And I don&amp;#8217;t even have that. I am all alone. Not broken, but shattered and he&amp;#8217;s not coming to pick up the pieces is he?&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;I&amp;#8217;m hopeful he&amp;#8217;ll love me again. And I&amp;#8217;m scared if he does. Because I don&amp;#8217;t want to hurt him. I&amp;#8217;ve been empty for the past four months, going on five. And I don&amp;#8217;t want to be here anymore&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;It&amp;#8217;s rare for people to live. Because most people just exist. And I am so tired of existing. All on my own. I&amp;#8217;m so tired of trying to smile. When I feel nothing. Or having people ask me what&amp;#8217;s wrong and IF I trust them enough to keep it a secret. They all just tell me it&amp;#8217;s a phase. I&amp;#8217;ll get over it. I&amp;#8217;m too young to feel that way. There&amp;#8217;s other people who will fix you. There&amp;#8217;s others you&amp;#8217;ll fall for. &lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;Well guess what. I&amp;#8217;m not too young. I know me. I know my heart. I know that it was taken. And the probability of it coming back is closing in on zero. I&amp;#8217;m defected. And I&amp;#8217;m scared that if people get close I&amp;#8217;ll taint them with my insecurities and negatives, and all my flaws that drove him away. I&amp;#8217;m scared that I&amp;#8217;ll taint him if he ever comes back.&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;&lt;span&gt;I want to sleep. And never wake up. I&amp;#8217;m tired. Tired and full of emptiness. I&amp;#8217;m tired of crying. I&amp;#8217;m tired. So fucking tired. Stop telling me I&amp;#8217;m too young. Stop telling me I&amp;#8217;m impulsive and that I&amp;#8217;ll get through this.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;It&amp;#8217;s not about getting through this. That part isn&amp;#8217;t as hard as you&amp;#8217;d think. It&amp;#8217;s just. Nothing is worth going through this. When there&amp;#8217;s nothing at the end but the darkness that is lonelier and darker than what I was in when I was found. So stop telling me to keep trying. Just fucking stop.&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;I HAVE been trying. More than you know. And I AM so tired of being strong. I am so tired of putting on an act just so people will leave me alone. You can pity me and try to empathize me all the fuck you want, but you will NEVER know EXACTLY what I am going through. All emotions aren&amp;#8217;t the fucking same. So stop. Just stop.&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;I want this all to be over. Please&amp;#8230; Just let it all be over.&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/49065736243</link><guid>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/49065736243</guid><pubDate>Sat, 27 Apr 2013 21:28:59 -0700</pubDate><category>depressed</category><category>sad</category><category>ameb-love</category><category>love</category><category>heartbreak</category></item><item><title>Photo</title><description>&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/42a65ac12ef6ef6959be8772d6bd3c73/tumblr_mlrl2mIq6U1ru83xzo1_250.gif"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;</description><link>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/48960943738</link><guid>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/48960943738</guid><pubDate>Fri, 26 Apr 2013 16:04:22 -0700</pubDate></item><item><title>makemestfu:

So relatable blog :)
</title><description>&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/faed340fc419ca3f9a663f4171a02baf/tumblr_mloaniWz3C1qbjt25o1_500.png"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://makemestfu.net/post/48645367116/so-relatable-blog"&gt;makemestfu&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.makemestfu.net/"&gt;So relatable blog :)&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;/blockquote&gt;</description><link>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/48645841194</link><guid>http://ameb-love.tumblr.com/post/48645841194</guid><pubDate>Mon, 22 Apr 2013 15:58:47 -0700</pubDate></item></channel></rss>
